Since I left the confines and conformity of elite sport and stepped outside, I’ve been sweaty and uncomfortable. The ickiness of the heat surprised me, I thought there would be a cool breeze blowing that would carry me off to the next great adventure of my life. But my weather prediction was far off. It’s a goddamn desert out here and I’m so poorly dressed.

The murky waters upstream started to clarify and a reflection emerged that brought me to this conclusion: Sport is a mirror of society - and at the moment the reflection isn’t great. It’s time to challenge the reflection in the mirror.

What is sport reflecting back at us? When we stand in front of the mirror, when we look at sport, what is it showing us about the world? 

“There comes a point where we need to stop just pulling people out of the river. We need to go upstream and find out why they’re falling in.” ~ Desmond Tutu. This story is my swim upstream to find out why I fell in the river & why so many female hockey players before me have too.